I took his virginity. That makes me feel uncomfortable to say. I've never had sex with someone who was a virgin. About a half hour post coitus, I took his hand. "I want to show you something, " I whispered to him, my breathing still slightly ragged. I navigated his fingers under my drawstring pants, which I had already pulled back on, and slid his index down the middle of my still wet lips. "See how that feels? I want you to find my clitoris". I felt the need to show him a few things for future reference. To my dismay, it took him a little longer than expected. Brushing past it every once in awhile, but easily losing it's location soon after. I think most of my hesitation with him comes from the fact that I'm more experienced. I'm not yet sure I want to continue having sex with him.
After all, there IS someone else. The one who knows exactly what I would want, though we have yet to go past heavy petting. Sure, the distance between us hasn't helped at all. In fact, we've barely spent any time together other than conversations over the phone. But we know each other. I could tell him anything without hesitation...except that I want him to be mine. This has been my number one dilemma as of late. I don't want to choose one or the other. Should I be guided by my emotions or by logistics? Do either really matter?
Posted at 01:42 am by
sleepy
